Thursday, March 14, 2024

Where Is My Mind? (I just had it a minute ago…)

 



There is a Pixies song, “Where Is My Mind?” Cool song. Go find it on Youtube. The main phrase that is repeated is:

 

“Your head will collapse, but there's nothing in it
And you'll ask yourself, where is my mind?”

 

SO many times in my youth, and even somewhat into adulthood, I feared what was IN my mind, not just WHERE it was. It was usually right there with me, but filled with all manner of tangled darkness and chaos. I could never escape it. And I was aware of this darkness from a very early age, like 3 or 4. I was aware of my own mentality, and it frightened me because I had no understanding of why I felt the way I did. I just knew something was wrong and that it was probably me that was wrong. It was my mind and thoughts that were wrong, although I didn’t have the words for what it was or how to express it.

 

I’d see other children at play and they seemed perfectly happy with life. They enjoyed themselves. I’d wonder what that would feel like. How to ignore what was going on in my mind and just live in the moment and enjoy life. Why couldn’t I be like that? I always thought of these other children as being ‘normal’ and I was not. And I didn’t have the words at my disposal to deal with it.

 

I have shared some of this with Sarah, since this is in her realm of knowledge. I recently read an article about CPTSD, with the “C” standing for Complex. It made so much sense for what I had felt as a child. When I mentioned it to Sarah, she said “Of course you had CPTSD. I knew that already.”

 

And of course there are plenty of episodes that I can remember as happy ones. I just tend to hang on to the negative ones. And I know that is something I have to work on constantly. I have a lot of support from family and friends, and most importantly, from my faith in Jesus Christ. I can’t imagine going through some of this stuff we call life without that support.

 

Now, back to where my mind went…it does tend to wander off at times…but as long as I don’t put the car keys in the freezer or cat food in my bowl instead of Cheerios I think I doing OK.

 

Random Thought:

I’m not in denial, I’m just very selective about the reality I accept – Calvin and Hobbes

 

 


Thursday, March 7, 2024

Put Down That Fork!! (or spoon)

 

I read an article about awful foods you should never eat. This was from a discussion group, so of course it’s personal opinions from different people. No underlying facts about it being bad for you, just that some people find these foods to be a nightmare.


 

Savory Jello

I have to side with this one. When I was first married, I got a “cook book” on the various things you can do with Jello. I’m sure you’ve seen some pics of these abominable things, like veggies, hotdogs, seafood…YUK…Although I have to admit I did like shredded carrots in orange jello.

 


 

Ambrosia

I LOVE ambrosia! I have several different ways this can be fixed, and view it as a dessert.

 


 

Olestra

EVERYONE remembers this fat substitute and the dire consequences that followed. Or should I say diarrhea consequences. No products are sold in the US now that has that ingredient.

 


 

Surströmming (Sour Herring)

I have to agree about this one too. Nordic folk love it, but it’s illegal in a lot of places. Thankfully. Never tried it and never will.

 


 

Wagyu steak with any condiment

If you’re paying big bucks for this, I can understand not wanting to distract from its delicious (expensive) taste. I’ve never had it. Probably never will. If I’m in a restaurant having regular steak, I like to have seafood cocktail sauce to dip my bite into. 

 

 


Shark Fin Soup

Harvesting the fins is a crime in most international waters. And you can’t taste it in the soup, either. It’s cartilage with no nutritional value.

 

 


 

Deep Fried Butter

THIS MAKES NO SENSE!! 

 


 

Brains (of any kind)

Nope nope nope nope nope…..

 


 

Rodents (land, water, or air-based)

The usual suspects as far as land rodents. But that also included rabbits and squirrels. For water rodents you got your capybara, nutria, muskrat and beaver. And of course, air-based means bats. I don’t care what Granny Clampett put in HER pot for supper, give me chicken or beef. And while I agree that rabbits are a viable meat source if treated humanely, I would think twice before I personally could kill and dress a bunny…

 

 


Maggot Cheese

Do I REALLY have to explain this one? I had never heard of it before reading this article. If you HAVE to know about this cheese, Google it. And try not to barf…

 


Thursday, February 29, 2024

OK…I’m Old! – Part 4

 



Film Canisters!! These were SO MUCH FUN to play with! You could put so many little treasures in these things. Paper clips, a few marbles, balloons. You could even put together a mini survival kit, sewing kit, first aid kit…These were mainly for my kids, not me. I came from the square flash-bulb era. But since my kids are in their 40s now, that DOES make me old…

 


 

This was a great little show from Canada on Nickelodeon that I watched everyday with the kids. Loved their skits. Les Lye and Abby Hagyard were the only adult members of the cast. Les was AWESOME in whatever skit he was in. In the ‘family skits’ with Les and Abby as the parents, Abby ALWAYS wore bright yellow rubber dish washing gloves, even sitting at the dinner table. My favorite line in those scenes was Les saying “Don’t encourage your mother!”

 


 

Tower Records was THE place to go for music!! Got probably 90% of my albums from that place. So many good memories!

 


 

WE HAD THIS SAME COASTER SET!!! And we used them! After awhile the cork absorbed so much moisture it separated from the wood. We still used them. Finally put them in the Salvation Army box many years ago.

 


 

These came out in the 70s and I loved them. I still do, although now they are Maxwell House and come in all plastic containers. I have the orange flavor every morning when I make my slimfast coffee. Great way to start the day.

 

Random Thought:

Boobytrap backward is Partyboob…